I will do anything to keep my secrets..
Cant have you finding out the sick truth about me..
Had I known you already knew..
I may not have had to kill you..
But I did not.
And in that moment.
As I sat in the barn, icicles running through my veins…
Squeezing my knees shut, to keep the pee in…
I knew I could not live if you knew –
That you could not live, if you knew –
but I was so ashamed
could not be embraced
so hopeless , so beyond REDEMPTION
beyond your LOVE
Beyond SANE thinking
IM SO SORRY,
SO VERY SORRY….